That is an almost accurate (metaphorical) visualization of me. I couldn’t begin to list all the things off my to-do list on here before I realize I’m forgetting to do something and get distracted.
These past few weeks have been especially trying. They’ve made me fall ill, cry, wish I was home and doubt myself all together. I’m at the point now where all I see is the finish line, which in my book is the day I get to fly back home. Which for the record, is less than 24 hours after my last exam! Yup, I wait for nobody.
Between classes, deadlines and extracurriculars, I barely have time to eat or sleep. But tonight – while waiting for my laundry to dry post-cleaning my room, I decided to put on a sheet mask, turn the lights off, get in bed and play a white noise sounds playlist.
It lasted about 15 to 20 minutes, but you know what? It was enough. It was what I needed right in that moment – in the midst of all my chaos. It gave me a clear enough head to write this blog post. But above everything else, I felt a little weight lift off my shoulders. I could breathe a little better now.
It wasn’t much. I didn’t do a whole day of self-care. I didn’t have a candle or an aromatherapy diffuser on (okay, mine’s shipping right now and if it was here, I’d probably use it but let’s not talk about that right now). My point is, sometimes even the bare minimum helps.
Sometimes, all you need is the slightest nudge or reminder that everything is okay and well. Even a breathing exercise for a minute or two, a face mask for five minutes or ten or a movie for two hours or three–no action is too small or too insignificant to help. A lot of times, you’re not even aware that all you need is a little bit of love.